So most of the time my Blog Posts revolve around things of the spirit, well today I decided to write a free write about something that has brought many blessings to my life. Someone who is selfless, loving, and more caring that anyone I know. That person is my girlfriend Colleen. I chose to write a freewrite on her because If elt the need to recognize all she has been to me in my life for the last 5 years.
Outside of my family I don’t think there’s one person that knows me as well as she does. We met before I joined the LDS church. We met when I was preparing to go play college football at Stevenson. WE started off romantic in the ebginning, and everything seemed so perfect that winter, until an ex of mine told me some information that literally shook my world. Colleen and I ended up just being “Friends”. To most of my friends they swore we were dating… And honestly looking back if you saw us, you’d probably think the same thing. There was just something so magnetic about her.
The two of us spent about 4 or so years during this “friendship” dating other people. We still managed to stay close. That friendship inevitably became a wedge in our relationship with others.I don’t regret it in any way, and beleive God had a plan the whole time. In 2014 when my ex broke up with me, I had swore off dating… I had just said I was done with it all, and would rather be on my own. That was until Colleen helped me realize there was indeed hope.
It was around General Conference in April of 2015, when I realized this whole time she had meant so much more. I got so scared. After that last breakup I was scared to take a chance. So I just started feeling the water out… In my mind I hit the reset button and began asking her out on dates. Not as her best guy friend, but as someone looking for more out of the relationship. We got even more closer, and began to groom and nurture that romantic element that had foudn refuge just beneath the surface of our super close friendship.
So we went to Philly on June 14th for my birthday. It was an amazing time. I remember just being so excited to be with her. I remember just thinking, we’d hang out literally almost every week for the last 5 or so years, but on that day it was something more, everything started to click, that this was the girl I needed to be with.
So 4th of July came. MY friend and Chris were manning the grill at our Ward’s fourth of july party. I had invited her down, and I was so excited. I remember telling Chris just how I felt, and he pretty much told me what I knew I needed to do, and that was “Make it official”.
I remember when she arrived to the Institute building in College Park where our BBQ was being held. she walked up to me, and honestly it was like a movie scene. The sun just shined on her as she carried the container full of mini-sandwiches. Everything just stopped, and I said to myself “That’s my girl…”
Jump Forward today which is a little more than 6 months later, and I swear I haven’t made a better decision in my life. The blessing she has brought to me through our friendship and our relationship are so great. Just the happiness I’ve felt is so amazing.
I know there’s the question… “Why didn’t you just date her when you had the first chance..?” I’ll reply with, because I wasn’t matured enough. The type of guy I used to be before the church, and when I was in college wasn’t the type of guy she deserved. I truly beleive she deserved so much better. I think Heavenly Father did a great job grooming me and preparing for the relationship we now share. I know it may not make sense, but if you knew me, you’d know I’m a million times better today that when I was in college.
If you ask any of our friends, you’ll know she’s one of the most selfless, and hardworking people on the face of this planet. And growing up aroudn my mother and my grandmother gave me a view of that same selflessness and caring nature that she possess, and that’s one of the most attractive traits I beleive a woman can have. I mean not only is she beautiful on the outside but she posesses an incredibly beautiful soul.
I don’t know where the future will take us, but I’m hopeful, and I’m happy. And at the end of the day that’s all that matters.
And Now I must make an end to my writing….