I want to dedicate this post personally to my Family and Friends, and loved ones who never gave up on me….
Lets start the show!
Humans are a very strange creature. We talk, we write, we walk on two legs upright, we build vehicles, we build buildings, and massive habitats. We are a pack society no matter how much we don’t want to admit it. Human beings are very different from the animals around us. Our minds alone make us one of the single greatest predators on the face of this planet. We as a species are quite amazing. Simply put it’s because we were created in Heavenly Father’s image. With the diversity in our species alone, I can only imagine how beautiful he is!
But we have something that I beleive is unique to us, something that can deter us. Now when I say unique, I look at it from the beauty and the negative. That unique feature humans have over the rest is “demons“.
Now before I go on and everyone be stirred up abotu how anyone can glorify demons, let me first clarify what I mean by “Demon”. I mean in the metaphorical sense, in things that we hold onto, or things that hold us back that haunt our minds. something even the highest General Authority has faced. Let me begin.
Every human on this planet has encounter a set-back. From the most brilliant minds, to the most humblest of individuals living extremely hard living conditions. Demons simply put are of the adversary.
Demons come in all shapes and form. sometimes they come through images on a computer, sometimes they influence the actions of others onto us, and most of the time they are those voices in our heads that tell us those words “No”, and “Can’t” and defile our self image of ourselves. Which is the opposite of what Heavenly Father wants for us.
Now the crazy beautiful thing about our demons is, that once we overcome and silence them we become stronger. Gee, that sounds so easy, you might think. Just overpower it and you can grow! It’s not entirely true.
See those voices at the end of the day that are telling you that you are less than your heavenly worth, are well evolved and aren’t as easy to destroy. In fact it takes hard work. IT takes time, and it takes a never give up faith and attitude.
So a little back story. And this is somethign personal to me,that I’ve never really publicized, but for the sake of sharing my testimony on this subject I feel prompted to do so.
Here goes story time!
Now, throughout my life right into the first few seconds of breath I’ve faced trials. I often joke knowing the details of my birth that, I either shouldn’t be here today, or I simply didn’t want to come out so I was holding onto the insides for dear life. (A little dark humor) Well when I was born as I was coming out, I got stuck inside my mother. This shows you the strength of my mother, she didn’t give up, she kept fighting. My right arm got stuck inside of her as I was coming out, causing severe nerve damage to my right arm. The doctors had told my parents that it would either never move or it would gradually get better but I probably wouldn’t be able to do much with it.
So I guess I must have been a tough cookie… My dad and mom sent me to all types of rehabs, and physical therapists. Then one day my dad noticed my rm moved, and that changed the game forever. I kept trying and moving it better and better over the years. By the time I was in elementary school, I had almost all movement. I could turn my arm all the way over, and sometimes it would hang wierd when not in use.
So I trained my mind. Sadly other kids saw it, and made fun of it. I guess because they dind’t understand it, or I don’t know the reason. But I remember being very angry as a child. I was always so angry. I was ridiculed for something I didn’t choose, somethign that was out fo my hands. A sort of trial Heavenly father placed in front of me. For MANY years I let those voices build in my head. I let the voices of those who didn’t know my story or what I had gone through make me feel less than my heavenly God given value. I let the demons grow in my mind, and I became isolated… I was always in fights because I was so angry, ironically training myself to throw a mean left in many occasions over a right.
Now for my parents who will read this, this is probably the first time they will ever have heard of this, and I apologise. It’s been one of those things I haven’t been able to get over or talk openly about with many people.
Back to the story. Well, the demons followed me into high school. I began to train my mind as I said earlier. Most people’s ligaments and muscles and bodies move almost automatically. Certain body parts just move and move and move. Well my arm had to be trained to move with me thinking about it constantly, just to appear normal. And I did that. I trained my mind to move it manually along with the other body parts of my body that way it could look “normal”. Mainly normal to the general public because normal to me had been what I saw when I looked in the mirror.
The demons continued to shout loud throughout high school. I trained myself to be virtually amidextrious. In my mind I heard the doctors who told my parents I’d never play sports, or that I wouldn’t be able to accomplish the things normal boys would be able to do.
I didn’t want to be left in the dust. I was a big kid, I was relatively strong, and I decided in high school, I wasn’t going to let those voices hold me back anymore. So I started wrestling, and learned how to use my other strengths. I adapted. I learned I could prove the doctors and the ridicule, and the voices wrong. I knew I could silence them! Most of the time, when I was hyped up during a sporing event or needed a boost, I’d tune into a channel in my mind that vocalized those voices. I’d use it to give me a boost, I’d turn it into a game to help me push through and continue to prove those voices wrong. Over the years or hardcore gym workouts and mental training, I’ve gotten to a point where you barely recognize the injury that I was dealt at birth… Unless I get lazy in my mind and forget. Which funny enough happens more times than you think, and honestly that is a blessing
See the thing is, I was truly blessed in the first place. Over my years I’ve met many people with way worse conditions than my own. People with mental, and physical conditions. And sometimes these conditions aren’t the typical. As an assistant mission leader, I’ve learned that peoples demons can stem from their doubts and insecurities. I have seen this, and I’ve been blessed with such a unique perspective that I can reach out to them.
The moral of the story is no matter what you are dealing with it can be fought. It may not have the result you are personally looking for, but you can fight. Sometimes the insecurities are what kill us, but we can fight it. Demons don’t have to hold us back. We don’t have to hold on to it.
So let me get in your face for a second!
I don’t know what you’re personal demon or hang up is. If you want to talk about it, that’s cool, I’m willing to listen and offer my thoughts. But I want you to take from my story and from the stories of others, don’t let the demons get to you. Virtually we feed the demons when we give into those temptations, or start to give up. No keep fighting! The Lord is on your side. Whatever you are dealing with, you can beat it. IT may not go “away” btu you can control your own life. the demons don’t have to tear you down any longer. RISE UP
I didn’t ask for my condition. In fact I’m 100% sure none of us asked for our various conditions, diseases, addictions, and shortcomings. BUT, we can control our reaction. We can either lie over and take it, and be burdened by our pitfalls and pains, or we can RISE UP and stand against.
I’ve been fighting since the moment I took my first breath, and I’m not in the business of quitting. I’ll keep fighting, the question is WILL YOU!?
I’ll close with my testimony that our demons and situations can be beat and made to work for us. We just have to keep fighting. As long as we try The Lord will stand on our side. I’ll also leave you with a quote I heard last night….
“There’s an election going on at all times. Heavenly Father is voting for ya, the devil is voting against ya, and you cast the deciding vote”
Senator Orin Hatch “March 15, 2015 “Why I Believe” @ The Washington DC LDS Temple Visitors Center”
You cast that deciding vote, don’t give up on yourselves. I say these things in the Name of Jesus Christ…Amen.